Life Effect.

You could say that im not ready to start my life.
And im honestly not.
Right now, what i have going on, is as much as i can probabaly handle right now, at this point in my life.
So why does my life decide it wants to throw me these curveballs? Im just living my life. Im not bothering anyone with my life.
Sometimes i feel like its not worth fighting for. I should just stop now and start my life. But i can't, because i know that's not where im supposed to be right now. I know where i'm supposed to be, and yes, its going to be hard to get back there. But i have to get back there, because thats where i belong.
Im going to do everything i can, like the doctors on greys when they are trying to save someones life. Thats how hard im going to work.
I will get back there.
I will continue to do what im supposed to do.
Im not going to settle for my half lived life.

Don't be afraid to sing

Your quiet eyes, your mouth that never tells lies
You've got one hour, its time you told your story
Eighteen alone, in love with the answer phone
And too afraid, you're too afraid to fall for anything
And too afraid, much too afraid to sing
I won't pretend, that I can see the end, but
Its far away, its in the distance
We'll find a place, there isn't room for two of us
The minutes drag, then there's a world between us
We all come to an end
And we all end together